Entitlement V.S. Being Worthy

Entitlement- a guarantee of access to benefits or rights or by agreement through law. It also refers in a more casual sense to someones belief that one is deserving of some particular reward or benefit.

Worthy- 1.Having worth, merit, or value; useful or valuable 2. Honorable; admirable 3. Having sufficient worth deserving

Matthew 10:38

And anyone who does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me.

I have been battling in my head last week this topic. I have heard teachings on entitlement not to long ago and it impacted my life, but for the last week entitlement has been creeping back in and I began to pray and God revealed to me be worthy, you are worthy He made me really think and has been speaking VERY LOUDLY about it to me all week and really didn't know where to begin with this topic that God was speaking into my life. Lately I have been really feeling down about wanting someone in my life and wanting a family. I know that it has A LOT to do with Isaac's constant questions of when I am going to get married and have a baby, and even telling who he wants me to marry and that he wants a baby sister. Then finding out that my ex husband's girlfriend is 4 months pregnant and they have been telling Isaac that they have been married since he moved in with her, and since our divorce was just final last month well all know that's not possible. It just makes me think I am entitled to a family of my own!!!! I have been shaking my fist and stomping my feet and throwing a temper tantrum in front of God. Saying if they are doing what they are doing in sin why isn't God blessing me with the desires of my heart? I am entitled to what I have my dreams set on, but at this point God convicted me of my words and said to me, " My daughter yes I know the desires of your heart, but listen to me you are not entitled to them, but you are worthy of them." He went on to speak to me and say, "You are worthy of a Godly man and a Godly family, and with my timing you will have these things of worth, but if you try to rush my timing then you will end up in ruins! OUCH!!!! yes I got a spiritual left hook from God and to be honest with you it took the wind out of me. I know what's right, but sometimes I fall back into worldly thinking like we all do, and it lets the enemy creepy back in and sit on your shoulder and tell you lies, and if we don't recognize it, it will take a hold of us and not let go. I don;t know about you but I don't want the weight of the enemy sitting on my shoulder. So I will continue to pray and know that I am worthy of my fathers love and timing, and what he decides for my life. Because if I am not picking up my cross daily it is showing my God that I am not worthy. If I continue to follow the ways of the Lord and have my cross on my back God will give me the desires of my heart. Last night I went and saw Joyce Meyer and she said something that confirmed my week long revelation:

"ENTER IN THE REST OF GOD AND LET YOUR SOUL GO ON VACATION!!!! "

and you can't change the things that irritate you, so all you can do is pray and sit down!!!!

Well guess what I am going on vacation and know that I am worthy and my God will take care of it all!!!!!!

Confessions of a Godly Wife!!

This year I am claiming that I am a Godly wife even though there is no boyfriend or husband in sight, God is teaching me to rely in him as my husband in this time. There is no time like the present to start confessing the things you want to be, and with this being the love month (thanks Hallmark!!) I am using this time to get close to my God, and have him be my Valentine right now. I am doing this because I know that God has an AMAZING man waiting for me just around the corner, in his timing and guess what? That timing is perfect!!!!!!!!!!! So I am speaking all of this forward in faith!!!

I confess that I am a supportive wife who demonstrates love in the way I approach my husband. He doesn’t see me as a nagging, complaining wife, but as a friend to confide in and to look to for strength. God is able to speak to my husband without my interference. I trust God to speak to him. I trust God to deal with my heart and help me take on a supportive role in our home.

I confess that I live a powerful, godly and chaste life before my husband. Therefore I am a constant encouragement to him. He seeks my advice. He wants my help. He desires to know what I believe is right regarding decisions affecting our family and our relationship. God’s Spirit is changing me and making me the kind of wife that He wants me to be. I declare this by faith, in Jesus’ name.

I confess that the beautifying of my spirit is a high priority in my life. I don’t make the mistake of putting all my time and effort into improving my outward appearance while forgetting to invest in my spirit. I’ve made a decision that my spirit is beautiful. I’m becoming more godly and beautiful all the time. I have an inward beauty that far outshines everything that I could ever do to improve the appearance of my outward man.

I confess I am a source of stability and power. I am a source of peace in my home. I don’t give in to anger. I don’t fly into a rage and say things that I will later regret. My husband and my children depend on me to be a tower of strength even in the midst of turmoil because I am so stable. I help bring stability to my husband, to my children and to the general atmosphere in my home. Instead of being a contributor to strife, conflict and turmoil, God uses me to bring peace and tranquility to all those who are near me. I release my faith now, in Jesus' name.