God is my wart Medication!!!!!!!!

Philippians 4:6-7 (The Message)

6-7Don't fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God's wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It's wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life.

Well lately I have been dealing with things that the enemy has been throwing my way, and well I thought that I had been dealing with them and letting them bounce off my rubbery Jesus Jacket. Well Guess what??? That's not the case, I have been trying the whole I'm rubber you're glue prayer (just an expression not really how I pray), but that has not worked. So today I have been totally asking God for guidance and he has given me this verse twice!! I got it once for my teaching tomorrow, and then I went to look something else up and BAM there it was in my face again!!! So I took the time to read it and it was almost like God saying, "Hello McFly!!" He is telling me he hears my cries and knows what is going on in my life. Sometimes we can tend to shake our fist at God and say, "it's clear as day to me, why aren't you doing anything to speed the process up?" Then when you don't hear from God you start to become a Worry Wart, and no over the counter (quick fix) will help you. You need to wait upon the Lord and let him take care of the warts in your life. God is like the meds you go and get from a doctor or like cryotherapy, even though they may take awhile to work and get into your system, the warts are usually gone for good! But if you use the ones you get from the store which are usually a band aid type deal they are a quick fix yes, but the warts usually come back. So if we worry about the things that God has a remedy for and we try to handle things on our own then, what's going to happen are these things that we worry about will pop back up like the warts you covered with a medicated band aid. So many time we fail to see that we cover our heart with a band aid instead of letting God truly heal, and when a band aid starts to get old the side roll down or it falls off. That allows germs (words of the enemy) work back into your heart, so what this means is that before we try to self medicate ourselves we need to spiritually medicate ourselves instead with the Word of God. So with this said I am going to let God remove the wart that has been on my mind for a few days, because I am not the doctor He is!!!!

Isaacism!!!!

So Isaac went camping last weekend, as I was getting him prepared to experience this amazing adventure (cause it was super cool for a 5 year old) I told him that he wouldn't be home until after church on Sunday, and at that point he looked at me very concerned and said in a very like are you serious voice. "Mom then how am I gonna praise God then?" Alright everyone say "AWE......." I love him SO much he is the best kid around!!!! I told him he could praise God in the woods cause he is always listening! He then say to me, "you're the best mom ever!"

Entitlement V.S. Being Worthy

Entitlement- a guarantee of access to benefits or rights or by agreement through law. It also refers in a more casual sense to someones belief that one is deserving of some particular reward or benefit.

Worthy- 1.Having worth, merit, or value; useful or valuable 2. Honorable; admirable 3. Having sufficient worth deserving

Matthew 10:38

And anyone who does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me.

I have been battling in my head last week this topic. I have heard teachings on entitlement not to long ago and it impacted my life, but for the last week entitlement has been creeping back in and I began to pray and God revealed to me be worthy, you are worthy He made me really think and has been speaking VERY LOUDLY about it to me all week and really didn't know where to begin with this topic that God was speaking into my life. Lately I have been really feeling down about wanting someone in my life and wanting a family. I know that it has A LOT to do with Isaac's constant questions of when I am going to get married and have a baby, and even telling who he wants me to marry and that he wants a baby sister. Then finding out that my ex husband's girlfriend is 4 months pregnant and they have been telling Isaac that they have been married since he moved in with her, and since our divorce was just final last month well all know that's not possible. It just makes me think I am entitled to a family of my own!!!! I have been shaking my fist and stomping my feet and throwing a temper tantrum in front of God. Saying if they are doing what they are doing in sin why isn't God blessing me with the desires of my heart? I am entitled to what I have my dreams set on, but at this point God convicted me of my words and said to me, " My daughter yes I know the desires of your heart, but listen to me you are not entitled to them, but you are worthy of them." He went on to speak to me and say, "You are worthy of a Godly man and a Godly family, and with my timing you will have these things of worth, but if you try to rush my timing then you will end up in ruins! OUCH!!!! yes I got a spiritual left hook from God and to be honest with you it took the wind out of me. I know what's right, but sometimes I fall back into worldly thinking like we all do, and it lets the enemy creepy back in and sit on your shoulder and tell you lies, and if we don't recognize it, it will take a hold of us and not let go. I don;t know about you but I don't want the weight of the enemy sitting on my shoulder. So I will continue to pray and know that I am worthy of my fathers love and timing, and what he decides for my life. Because if I am not picking up my cross daily it is showing my God that I am not worthy. If I continue to follow the ways of the Lord and have my cross on my back God will give me the desires of my heart. Last night I went and saw Joyce Meyer and she said something that confirmed my week long revelation:

"ENTER IN THE REST OF GOD AND LET YOUR SOUL GO ON VACATION!!!! "

and you can't change the things that irritate you, so all you can do is pray and sit down!!!!

Well guess what I am going on vacation and know that I am worthy and my God will take care of it all!!!!!!

Confessions of a Godly Wife!!

This year I am claiming that I am a Godly wife even though there is no boyfriend or husband in sight, God is teaching me to rely in him as my husband in this time. There is no time like the present to start confessing the things you want to be, and with this being the love month (thanks Hallmark!!) I am using this time to get close to my God, and have him be my Valentine right now. I am doing this because I know that God has an AMAZING man waiting for me just around the corner, in his timing and guess what? That timing is perfect!!!!!!!!!!! So I am speaking all of this forward in faith!!!

I confess that I am a supportive wife who demonstrates love in the way I approach my husband. He doesn’t see me as a nagging, complaining wife, but as a friend to confide in and to look to for strength. God is able to speak to my husband without my interference. I trust God to speak to him. I trust God to deal with my heart and help me take on a supportive role in our home.

I confess that I live a powerful, godly and chaste life before my husband. Therefore I am a constant encouragement to him. He seeks my advice. He wants my help. He desires to know what I believe is right regarding decisions affecting our family and our relationship. God’s Spirit is changing me and making me the kind of wife that He wants me to be. I declare this by faith, in Jesus’ name.

I confess that the beautifying of my spirit is a high priority in my life. I don’t make the mistake of putting all my time and effort into improving my outward appearance while forgetting to invest in my spirit. I’ve made a decision that my spirit is beautiful. I’m becoming more godly and beautiful all the time. I have an inward beauty that far outshines everything that I could ever do to improve the appearance of my outward man.

I confess I am a source of stability and power. I am a source of peace in my home. I don’t give in to anger. I don’t fly into a rage and say things that I will later regret. My husband and my children depend on me to be a tower of strength even in the midst of turmoil because I am so stable. I help bring stability to my husband, to my children and to the general atmosphere in my home. Instead of being a contributor to strife, conflict and turmoil, God uses me to bring peace and tranquility to all those who are near me. I release my faith now, in Jesus' name.

Isaacism from June

So as you all know my son comes up with things that crack me up DAILY!!! So the other day we were in the pool and Isaac tells me, "Mama I'm Black," I then said "Isaac no you're not." He said, "well someone at school called me black, and my daddy is black" I responded, "honey your dad is puerto rican and I am irish so that makes you irish and puerto rican." Isaac says, "nope I'm black." After telling him about 3 times that he is irish and pueto rican he looks at me very seriously and shouts , " I AM NOT PUERTO RICAN I AM CHRISTIAN!!!!!!" Needless to say I didn't argue anymore with him after that!

Don't Call a Taxi!

Philippians 3:12-14
12 Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. 13 Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14 I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.

Near The Goal!!!!
I have come to see that when you're in a race (I did a 5K and a 10K last year, not running but speed walking) it is not the start that hurts or even the miles you walk down a long stretch, it is when you see the end (the goal) in sight. When the goal is spotted is when the heart, nevrves, courage, and muscles are strained beyond anything you can think of and you feel like you're almost at your breaking point. Now at this point you can stop and call a taxi and have them take you home, or you can take a look back and see how much you have acommplished and press forward to make it to your goal. The last week has been so up and down for me and instead of hailing down a taxi and saying 'Vinny (Yes I named the taxi driver) take me back to where I started" (and that would be one HUGE mistake), I chose to press into God even more. I know that my new season is just around the bend and all I have to do is continue to cry out to God with all that I have, I have been training way to long to give up this race and I know that God is right beside be cheering me into victory!! So with this in mind I continue to press into God and reach for the goal, and jump over road blocks and dash past red light if I have to, just to reach the goal that is in sight. Even if my goal is in the distance and I feel like my 10K has turned into a 20K I know that God has a good reason for his timing, and I may be cry out to him that it hurts, but I know that the pain will subside and I will have a nice pretty prize in my hands!!
Today I will walk (or speed walk) to my vicorty!!!!

A day in the life of a single mom

For about the last year Isaac has been asking when I was going to get a new husband, and I always tell him,"honey when God thinks it is a good time he will bring me one." I know this all stems from him seen his dad with someone since he left, so I think in Isaac's little brian he thinks I need to be with someone too. I ensure him that I am ok, and I am taking this time to be with him and for us to do things. He has told me in the past that he needs to sleep in my bed until I get a husband. I know that Isaac needs a GOOD father figure in his life, yes his dad in his life, but he really needs someone to show him the way! So keep in mind that I said before that he has been asking me when God is going to bring me a husband, well the other night we were chilling out on the couch and he looks at me and asks me, "Mom when is God going to bring me a new dad?" That really took me back, I told him just to pray about it an God will bring someone into our life. I also ask Isaac you have a daddy, he said I know, but I want someone to take me fishing and do things like that. So for you single moms out there know that there is someone out there for all of us, and your children will look up to you and know when they are older that you did everything with them in mind. We always have to keep our head up, and push on even when it looks hard there is always a reward at the end of the race, and my next blog will expail what I mean by that.